Sunflower Butter and Salad

Today I finally went to both United and Walmart and re-stocked the kitchen!

A snack, you say? A bagel thin with sunflower butter and a little raspberry jam. I didn't bother to re-plate for the picture so it's messy!

Then I biked for 40 minutes ... and it was time for dinner!

I had a ton of bread today so I decided to make a salad.

This is spinach, wheatberries, cottage cheese, turkey breast, kidney beans, Annie's ranch, and herb goat cheese. Not too bad for a quick but really delightful dinner. I also admit that I had another bagel thin because I was still hungry! But it did the trick, ya'll! I think my biking made me hungry!

I also had a Dreyers berry popsicle after dinner but ate it before I took a picture! I think something sweet but low cal after supper is perfect for me ... it tells me that I'm done for the night.  Another trick that may really work well for me in the long run!

In other news, L and I think that a crazy mole on my arm may need to be removed - it's gotten bigger and rather weird-looking with a nasty little crust on it that I just noticed yesterday. I'm going to go show my mom tonight (she's had several removed) ... but I'll get myself to the derm to have his professional opinion! How yucky! If I have melanoma PLUS cervical cancer that would be lame. Gah! :P  It may just be an odd big mole - I do have several!

~ M

Just a Crazy-Cat Day

I am very moody today, internetz. And when I say very moody, I mean VERY MOODY. Rollercoaster moody. And it's not a manic moody, it's a depressed, sob-until-you-drop-then-sob-more moody. This is very abnormal for me, and I'm rather glad (yet not glad because I'm that moody) that I have Dr. J today. I'm suspecting the drastic weather change plus the generic tompamax - I now have the normal stuff, but I think it'll take a little time to get back to normal.

Plus I'm going to call my lady-doctor and ask if it's normal to feel pain/irritation after a biopsy ... I haven't felt like this ever, and I've had several. It's been a week, and I need to just call and ask.

To make matters worse, Miss Zoe has decided today would be the best day to have two poop accidents and a fun puke in the house. Uhm puppy, I love you so much, but dang!

I didn't take pictures of lunch but I had a salad like yesterday. And I'm having an extra coffee to help my headache. I tried biking, but I just stopped after about ten minutes and bawled my eyes out. Nope, not today.

~ M

A Moody Mix Day

For lunch I had a small salad. I wasn't too hungry and developed a headache and a rather mope-tastic mood around 12 ... more on that later.

This salad had a little bit of everything that's in the fridge right now - a little bit of noodle, hummus, an egg on top with hot sauce (I put a little too much on today ...), carrot shavings, mixed greens, broccoli, and some organic turkey breast. Topped with some low fat ranch and balsamic vinegar and pepper. It was delicious. I also had a chocolate and a teeny taste of soy milk (because that hot sauce heat was not leaving my mouth).

Turns out the pharmacy gave me generic topamax instead of regular .... and I figured "Well it's generic ... how bad can it be, right? It has to be similar!"

I was so wrong, readers. I felt okay until about noon ... and then the angry and sobbing mood set in. And I never feel that way around noon! I moped, I limped around the house ... and after about an hour of that nonsense, the terrible headache and the blinding exhaustion came. I'm still in that phase about four hours later.

I'll be talking to the pharmacy about getting my regulars back, stat.

I wanted a snack around 5:00. A chocolate-y snack - see, I took a nap and didn't have my usual 3:00 banana or orange. I had a piece of Great Harvest toast with almond butter and a Lindt chocolate spread on it. Plus some chai tea.

It just occured to me that this looks a little nasty in the picture. It's not gross, readers. It tastes like a slice of Heaven. :)

My lady-doctor called, and we're going to discuss when to schedule the hysterectomy - I can schedule it either sooner (probably in April or early May) or later (probably August or September) - her schedule is weird in June and July. I may go with sooner and just get it over with! I'll think about this for a few days, but honestly, after this bioposy, my "lady bits" haven't felt well at all! It may be a sign to just get this going!

For dinner I just wanted more toast - ever since my last cervical biopsy I have been nursing a tummyache, and tonight it's plaguing me! So I made French toast, 2 pieces with a little almond butter and pure maple syrup. I've had much more almond butter and toast than usual today - I usually just have that bit in my oats and sometimes a little for a snack - but ya'll know what, I have to practice telling myself that's okay. I'm not going to feel guilty about it today. And the toast was so tasty tonight and easy on my stomach.

A goofy picture I took of Zoe trying to get up on the counter ...I snapped this picture totally by accident while I was telling her to get down! See the pup leaving the counter? :P

Here's hoping that the rest of tonight will be uneventful and easy-going!

~ M

Salad Puppers

The rest of my day has been pretty moody - I called the pharmacy to get some meds which they told me were already ready to go. I went to pick them up and sure enough, they said they couldn't find the pills. I know mistakes are made, but ya'll, I have a plethora of pills and go to that pharmacy probably 5-6 times a month ... they mess up a ton on my meds and have for years. 

Today I couldn't handle it. This is a bipolar trigger of mine - pharmacy antics. I just smiled, said I'd be back in an hour ... and burst into tears when I drove off. When I came home, I went to my room and had a "moment." That's just one facet of my bipolar - I have "moments" where I have to just go nuts/cry for about five or ten minutes, hard. Then I'm totally fine again. I always recognize that I'm having a "moment," but I just can't help it - I just have to get it out. That's what bipolar is essentially - you can't control your moods. If I'm rude to someone, I'll apologize after the moment immediately and feel so awful.

I'm better now, of course. I took a few pictures of the puppers this evening to relax and thought I'd share:

For dinner, we have slim pickens 'round these parts so I whipped up a batch of corn bread mix and a salad.

I had two muffins ...

And half of this salad because it was pretty filling. I made a balsamic-y dressing which I love - it's half low-fat ranch, half balsamic and a dash of olive oil. The salad: mixed greens, plain pasta, broccoli, a spoonful of hummus, a ton of cracked pepper. Luke had half of this because I couldn't finish ... and Zoe got a piece that fell.

And for dessert? Two little chocolates and a little glass of soymilk. :)

~ M